Reflecting On My Life At Fenn

Silieness - Lack of common sense of judgment;foolishness

        In the fourth fourth grade, Mr. Smith was my advisor and social studies teacher. Halfway through the year, I realized that I wanted to be like Smitty when I grow up. I wanted to be the adult that developes such a good relationship with kids that they would feel so comferatble around me. I wanted to be the adult that would let kids into my room and to talk about there problems. I wanted to be the person that kids would want to come to talk to me. When I was in the fourth grade, thats how I saw Smitty. In fact, I developed such a good relationship with him, that I felt to comfertable with him. I was the silly kid in social studies. I felt so comfertable with him in class, that I thought I could do whatever I wanted. I thought that I could be the most distracting kid in class and I would just get away with it. And that was kind of the case. Sometimes I would do stupid things in class and I would get a recess recall.

        The next year wasn't much different. My advisor and english teacher was Mr. Bird. Mr. Bird and I established a strong student teacher relationship and it was the same as the year before. Now I am in the eighth grade and still nothing has changed. Fitz is the same as all of the other teachers. (thats not bad). And now as I am writing this blog post, I am reflecting on all of the stupid things I have done in my life. I am reflecting on all of the things I did just to get some attention. All of the things I did, just to have a stronger relationship with my peers. And now that that has happened, its hard to stop. Its hard to think, that I could be that lonely fourth grader without any friends that I was in the fourth grade. But now that I think about it, I am affecting the whole class not just myself. I am disturbing the class when we are learning something. I am also effecting myself in a bad way also. I am so focused on getting attention that I am not paying attention in class. And now, I have finally realized that I need to stop. For both myslef and my peers sake.