Lacrosse 

 The calm before the storm. That’s what I call winter. Spring to me in intense. It’s seven days a week two to three hours a day of working out or lacrosse and all for the hope and dream of starting at a D1 top 10 college. I say college because pro lacrosse is a job. Unlike other pro sports that make millions a year lacrosse makes 7,500-10,000 a year on average. Not being greedy but that’s not enough. Everything I do in lacrosse is for that one small chance I might have later in life. 

Right now lacrosse is my life and I can’t lose it. Their is only one starting spot for goalies on every team and I’m taking it. Unlike other positions where there are three starters for goalie it’s only one. And my dream is a long shot, but it’s achievable. I’m lucky to have who I have and know who I know. My dad and two uncles where all starting D1 lacrosse players. I learned my drive and effort FOR LACROSSE ( not my writing) from them. They told me all their mistakes and what not to do and  engraved what I have to do. I know many D1 college coaches from family friends and youth coaches introducing me to them. 

I’ve always wanted this dream, from when I first picked up a lacrosse stick to when I would cry in the car not wanting to go to practices in 4th grade to now. I’ve always wanted it but not as much as I do now. Ever since 6th grade I’ve changed. In 6th grade I fell in love with working hard and that felling it gives you and to top off the year I made varsity lacrosse is 6th grade. To play against these giants at the time like Will Potter, Max Toumy, Petter Baisos was terrifying but awesome. I knew I could hang with freshman lacrosse players in 6th grade. I knew I had something special, and I couldn’t let it go to waist. Now 7th grade rolls around and I’m the starting goalie for Fenn and it’s a huge boost of confidence. I went into summer feeling great about lacrosse. I went to a two week lacrosse camp at Towson university and being able to live in a dorm for two weeks was sick but also being able to play with insane 7th, 8th, and 9th graders was crazy to me. After that school starts and the camp I went to is already trying to invite me back to other camps they have. To see how bad they wanted me at their camps was the biggest confidence boost ever. It made want more from myself and only expect more. It made me drive harder and want better. 

Lacrosse made me who I am today. 

Pain is one of life’s many steps to becoming a great person. 

The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.

~ rocky balboa 

Some can fear it while others embrace it. Pain is one of those things in life where everyone reacts to it differently. Some people will hide from it and never face it while others search for it and grow off of it. 

      In life you HAVE to deal with pain. Whether it be emotional or physical you have to deal with it a one point or another. It could be a bad injury or the loss of a loved one. Because you have to deal with pain in life those who hide from the smaller pains will never be able to handle the real amounts of pain. 

     Throughout life I like everyone have dealt with pain. I personally don’t handle it in the best way but I don’t hide from it. Weather it be my mom going through cancer treatments all my life, or seeing a parent battling an addiction or even dealing with broken bones in the first quarter and finishing the game. I definitely haven’t dealt with the worst out of everyone but I have dealt with some. I haven’t dealt with it well but not the worst. I like to hide my pain. I don’t hide from it but I hide it from others. People need to stop hiding from it. 

      Instead of showing my pain and talking to someone I hide it. And I hide it really well. Like I was saying earlier with the broken bones in the first quarter after I finished the game I couldn’t get my hand out of my lacrosse glove it was so swollen. I went to the hospital after getting my glove cut off and I had broken 3 fingers and 4 bones in my hand. I broke 2 bones that game. The other two came from practices and games a week or so back. I hated my team but I knew they wouldn’t step in net so I had to finish the season. I was playing with broken bones for 9 days and nobody knew. 

      Because nobody knew I now can’t bend my fingers on my felt hand as much I use to. Because I hid my physical pain away from others for a team I hated, I lost mobility I’m my hand. That’s a super small amount of pain and a small punishment. I was just scared of them thinking I was weak. 

     Without a doubt if I had to go back I would change a thing, but that’s who I am, I don’t want people thinking down on me so I force through it. People need to force through the pain and grow from it. If they don’t force their way through they won’t be prepared for what will come. 

Fortnite Beyond The Game

100 men enter, only 4 men leave.  

Fortnite' really is just the perfect storm of a game. ~ Ninja

During this video you will witness me and the squad getting an extreme dub in Fortnite battle royal. We will be in a team of three while everyone else is in teams of four making it harder and more crazy.

The squad is made up of Andrew, A.K.A DelayedSnail, Finn, A.K.A Finnmh, and me, Censedmoth. We will enter the dangerous lifestyle called Fortnite of 100 men and we will be the only ones to exit victorious. As we fight through the pain and suffering just to be able to call ourselves victorious. 

Life is like Fortnite. You don't always win. You have to be the first one out sometimes. You have to be second place. You have to lose important people. you have to force yourself on. You will have to ask for help. You cant ever be selfish. In the end you will become what you set out to be. 

Fortnite can teach you many lessons. Lessons you can bring into your outside life.