It’s worse every day. I can’t see myself ever liking school when it’s not spring time. School is just a long nightmare. I’ve never liked school. The only thing about school that’s fun are the little things. Hanging out with friends, playing sports with you friends, that type of stuff. All my teachers see me as negative because that’s who I am in class.  I’m miserable in school. It’s an hour of sitting, getting in trouble, being confused, and doing work that I don’t know how to do. Don’t even get me started on homework. Every year it’s more and more homework. Every year it’s more and more time taken away from kids. Almost every kid does some sort of sport/activity. From personal experiences 6-7 days of the week from the middle of fall to the end of spring I’m not getting home until 10.

Now just because I’m home doesn’t mean I’m starting my homework at 10. I have to shower, make dinner and eat dinner. At best I’m starting my homework at 11:15. At 11: 15 I couldn’t care less about my grade on whatever I’m doing for homework. I’m in bet at 12:30 almost every night. I get 5 hours of sleep tops every night. And teachers still get mad at me for sleeping in the gym lobby when I arrive. I’d say I have the longest days at fenn. I’m usually one of the first people at fenn.  I beat all the teacher there. I beat every student to school. I’m on a varsity team for 2/3 of the year. I’m on the fenn property from 7 am to 5pm. After school I go to either lacrosse, hockey, physical therapy or a mix. All my practices are pretty far from my house. How many sports teams where you on when you were 14 years old. I’m on 5 different teams. Keep that in mind the next time you say “ you guys have plenty of time to get the homework done.” And then complain about how tiered people are in the morning when they get no sleep. Don’t go thinking that I hate school and if I had the chance wouldn’t go. I have a shattered tailbone and broken pelvis at the same time. I was advised not to go to school. I still went to school. I still sat in those hard plastic and wood chairs. I didn’t complain once about how much pain I was in while walking down the halls and stairs just to get to a class that I don’t want to be in and sit in a chair that hurts that hell. I wasn’t allowed to use the elevator until the second week I was injured. I tried to use it but got yelled at by teacher and forced to walk up those stairs.

Science is the worst class and I don’t care if he knows or not. He know I hate him. I get in verbal fights with him and I try and get under his skin every class I do it to get back at him. I broke my shoulder in a Fenn football game and had to where a sling for a month. He knew I was in a sling he knew I was injured. I couldn’t write with the sling on because it was my dominant arm that was hurt. He still had me write paragraph after paragraph. He watched kids poke my shoulder and flick my shoulder and I was visibly in pain. What did he do nothing.

When I broke my tailbone and pelvis I broke down in tears when I tried to sit down and a kid pulled my cushion out from under me and I sat down on his hard plastic chair. What did he do? He did nothing. He didn’t even ask if I was good or not. He asked me to get up and sit in my chair. From then on I tried to make his life a living hell in class. It was to the point of where kids would ask what I would say that day. I was know in that class as the kid that wants to make this teacher's life hell. I got under his skin so easily. And yeah I’m an asshole. But he deserved it. I would look for ways to get him just the smallest bit mad and when he finally budged I would go off on him. You ever want to say something but only say it in your head. I would just say it. The hardest part was keeping a straight face. I would have the kids next to me dying laughing. I wasn’t doing it for attention or just to be funny. I did it because I was pissed off at him and needed to get back at him.

The only time of the school year I enjoy is spring. Spring is lacrosse season. I can finally just do what I love to do. I can finally just ignore the school work for the moment and just play lacrosse. This quarantine sucks. It couldn’t have been at a worse time. I was practicing with the CC varsity team for the 2 first weeks of the season and then it all got canceled. I was supposed to practice with varsity all year. I’m Coach’s D’s next goalie. I’m on the path of being CC’s first ever 4 year starting goalie. Never in the history of CC has there been a 4 year starter and I’m on path to be the first. And now I can’t practice I can’t play I’m trapped in my house. I’ve lost the joy of spring. I’m getting hyped just typing the possibility of being the first ever CC 4 year starter. The starter now is a senior and I’m far better than the other goalies. And that’s not just me being cocky. That’s from the players and coaches. And what Coach D says he means. He doesn't care about how you feel. Worst thing that happens is I’m the backup at CC. Even then I’m happy. I’m on varsity as a freshman.