What I was, What I am now

“I will never speak to you again!” I said in my deep, angry voice with rage. I didn’t want to witness his despicable plans, his hurtful comments, and his damaging lies. He has caused me so much pain, I felt like a wounded soldier, begging for help. Yet no one would help; for I had nothing in this dark world besides him, but he was gone. 

I laid on the grass looking up at the sky, it was about to get dark, and the sun was still giving a bit of light at the bottom of the horizon. I stared at it imagining that that light symbolized me, and I had that much hope left inside of my rotting self. And even though I’ve gone through so much, there is a little bit of light shining inside me. And now I’m ready to start my life back up again. Ready to kick ass and start over again, rebuild my self from the shitty place I’m in right now, plug myself into a charger and get to 100%. That is what I want to do. 

To experience nature truly. You need to be excluded, alone, and peaceful. My fists clenched like I gripping bike handles. I was in a meadow, a one on a hill, in the middle of no where. The breeze was perfect, enough to cool me off, but not enough to disturb the harmony in the air. I just came off something stressful, annoying, and damaging. I needed alone time. I felt like a little kid in a temper tantrum. Yet I hid it inside of me like an insecurity afraid to let it loose. I couldn’t let people know what hideous monster has grown inside of me. I didn’t want to admit it, but there was something scary about telling people how I really feel and what I’m really like. Behind the one worded answers I would give, there was much more. But what does this have to do with nature. And truly I don’t know, I started it off with nature and about how peaceful and how great it is to be alone experiencing nature. But it got to me and I let the beast out and I said what had to be said, I spoke the truth and only the truth, not covering anything up. And thats what this story is about I guess. Letting your emotions out and showing what you really are. Forget the nature forget that, I changed my mind this journal entry is wired lets leave it at that.

This weeks stories were fabulous I feel like every student went above and beyond on there work. And for the many narrative stories that I read, there were a few that really stuck out to me. Whether it would be the students incredible similes or images on action these students stories are spectacular. 

To start off I think that Oliver Ali did a great job on this assignment. His story was about how his neighborhood couldn’t get together due to the virus. And how they still hung out in other ways and spent time with each other. This was so wholesome and happy. I actually smiled while reading this due to the joy out brought me. He started with a opening about how much fun he’s had with his neighbors, then he completely changed the mood to gloomy and sad, because he couldn’t hang out with them anymore. But then he lightens it up and tells us about how they resolved the issue and had loads of fun. This was amazing to read and it was an awesome story. 

Next I’d like to talk about Dylan Fayerman’s story. His story was quick and simple but even though it didn't have many words an paragraphs, it made up for it with his creative and exciting writing. His story was about how he went exploring in his backyard and found an abandoned building and construction he described the scene he saw, mentioning countless parts about the structure painting the image in my mind. He did research and found evidence of the building and what the building was for. But my favorite part about this story though, was how he didn't drag the beginning out for a long time. And go it straight to the point and made it a quick, fun, and easy read. 

Commenting used to be super annoying for me. I used to dread having to read stories for hours at a time. And I think the reason that I hated it so much, is that we used to be not as good. I used to complain in November and December about how hard it was to read these stories. But I think the reason that commenting is better and much easier for me, is that we’ve improved with our writing; so I’ve liked reading the stories more. It’s hard to do a good job on something if your don't like it, or think its boring. But now that a lot of us have improved tremendously on our writing talents, its been much smoother for me, easier for me, and more fun for me. 

I loved this assignment! It was fun, easy and quick. And when I say that it might sound bad; for I said it was quick and easy. But the only reason I’m saying that is because I picked a good book. I feel like if I picked a book that I didn't like and was uninspiring, I wouldn’t do nearly as well on the assignment, and wouldn’t have liked the assignment and would’ve gotten frustrated. 

I loved describing the book, no one in my family is into Harry Potter to my dismay. And as much as Ive tried to convince them to read it, they wont. The only person I do talk about the series to, is my grandmother who loves the series to. I really like describing what I read and talking about it. I feel like an excited little kid telling his mom that he scored in basketball. I love describing it in my own way and how I see the scenes, do I side with one character or the other? 

I love the book Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Its the finale and it is a masterpiece. The flow of the book is amazing. It starts exciting with a flying scene as the main character, Harry Potter escapes from the dark lord with the order (a secret society.) then death eaters go to Harry’s hideout and raid it. And the three main characters escape and go off on there own. For a very long time the trio is researching hocruxes (the thing that will eventually kill the dark lord) during this time the trio gets mad at each other and one of them runs away out of frustration out of no progress. And although there’s note much action it builds up. Then after they get captured by the bad guys and get taken to their headquarters. They escape and steal a hocrux from the bank and the finally the big battle happens. The trio destroys the final hocruxes and there is a battle a gigantic battle. The series ends with harry fighting the dark lord in front of everyone, and finally killing him once and for all. I love how the tension builds up for so long, and its released and we get the biggest and most thrilling part of the series.

I love this book and it will be so close to my heart forever. I love reviewing it talking about it and reading it!

What techniques did I use in my narrative structure?

I tried using micro works skills and I managed to use some strategies but there are two parts of my narrative story that I’m really proud of. I really liked the start and end of my story. For the conclusion I used parallel structure in a way. And by that I twisted parallel structure but I made it sound really good and I really like it. And then my beginning, for the beginning I tried to make it sound much better than my others. I didn't just state my story I made it interesting and compelling. I had sentence after sentence of what I thought was good writing and it was one of my first very exciting beginnings. I’m really happy with this story though I actually wrote more than what was required and felt like I actually covered the story and aid everything I needed to say and not just stopping the story when I reached the word requirement and didnt have to write anymore. But this story I feel like I went a bit above and beyond. I am looking forward to creating stories like these because I relived a memory of my childhood that was very nostalgic. 

The Change in The People you meet

My friend became a new person

Friends come an go, you make some in your years of grade school; however when high school comes there gone. And although I’m not in high school I have lost very important friendships when changing schools. It wasn’t the same after I left, the kids from my old school looked at me as an exile, someone who didn't belong, it felt like they completely forgot who I was. Whether it was the mean looks I got, or a short, meaningless response when I said “hello” to them. I was confused I had been best friends with them for 5+ years and this is what they treat me like, like a new kid that they despised for no reason. And they treat me like this because I left there school...

There is many kids I’m referring to, but in particular there is a kid named Jake. I used to be really close to this kid but once I left he changed friend groups and looked at me like an outcast. As I still live in the same town, Lincoln, I still hang out around town and do extra curricular activities in Lincoln. And for Jake I see him around town often with a different group of kids, which I’m fine with, he’s allowed to have new or different friends. However whenever I see him he acts like its the first time meeting me and that I’m a whole new person. I’m not asking for Jake to be my best friend, I’m just confused on why he’s not giving me any recognition. It’s like he hates my guts. And its not just me who feels this way, I have another friend named Peyton who used to be friends with Jake and we were like a trio me, Peyton and Jake. And Peyton and Jake are neighbors but like me Peyton changed schools so both me and Peyton left jakes school so he acted this way to not just me but also Peyton. Me and Peyton still hang out, and he consistently tells me stories about how he’s changed and become a whole new person. 

There was one story in particular that Peyton told me.... as I said before Peyton and Jake are neighbors so they were even closer friends with Jake than I was because they hung out more often. Peyton was bored one day so he went over to Jake’s house (this is after Peyton also left the towns school) and asked Jake if he wanted to hang out. Jake was hanging out with another kid that Peyton was pretty friendly with, but Jake declined in a mean spirited way, the other kid looked in an embarrassing sort of way at Peyton sort of showing that he was find with hanging out with Peyton. And thats where the story ends. I know its not some exciting story with a huge fight or thrilling part; yet, I think it shows how people change and what it can do to someone. I can’t read Jake’s mind, and I don't see him very often anymore; but one things for sure, Jake has really changed and has become a completely different person. 

I tell you this story because I think it shows how people change and how people feel about you when you leave there school, team, or town. Me and Peyton leaving Jake’s school had an affect on him and he no longer wanted to be friends and started acting mean and disrespectful towards us like we did something wrong. But now as I look back on my friendship with Jake I will recall the happy and fun times with him, not the recent actions he has made. 

We started with smiles, we left off with disdain, we reunited with frowns. 

Mario Odyssey and stories

doing something you love

Let me paint you the picture, I’m sitting in my cozy closet/work place. I’m listening to an audiobook while playing a peaceful game called Mario Odyssey. I love this game and it is amazing. It is a story game where you create moon shards to Fuel your ship called the odyssey. The reason I like the game is the mood and vibe it has. Whenever I play the game, I become peaceful and attached to the game. There is no violence involved and no guns, blood, or inappropriate parts. It is so calming yet so much fun. When you get a moon shard, the dopamine is so high and you get so happy, I’m telling you this game is magical. 

I appreciate the effort in the game and the vast gameplay the game gives you. It is like an endless birthday, a endless amount of surprises and gifts the game has to offer. The average time it takes someone to beat the game is about 20 hours. Yet there is hours and hours of more time that the game has waiting for you. And during all of this fun, I have my iPad playing stories from YouTube, no video just audio and its great. I can focus on the game and listen to peaceful stories and I love it. I’m making the best of this horrible situation were in.

Find something peaceful to do a game, hobby, anything.

I really like the trail in the back of our yard, its the start of a big trail leading to a pond and a couple roads, its very peaceful and take 30 minutes walks there often. It’s a good place to reflect, clear your head, and just think. There is a small pond that I sometimes go fishing on its called beaver pond and is really beautiful. But the best part of the walk is the woods in general. Just looking up you can see colossal trees hovering over you like a sky scraper and I actually like it when its windy and cloudy because it has a mood that I like. 

I really like being alone on this walk. I use it as my alone time and don’t really like walking with other people. As it isn’t as special and meaningful when your with other people. The good thing about it is that there’s multiple paths and routes you can take so your not forced to go a certain distance every time. Some days I go longer some days shorter but it’s all up to what I want to do.

Spend some time outside, make sure you have some alone time, and have time to think and reflect. 

Times are tough, and there’s no way around it. This is not what the world was ready for, and it is the most damaging event in the last decade. We need to be optimistic and stay positive; the truth to this virus right now is that we don’t have a full answer yet. All these questions popping up inside our worried brains don’t have a solution; yet we have to just stay calm and stay safe. And even though these are tough times it shouldn’t get in the way of your life and you should try your best to still spend time with others and be the same person you already were.

 And now more than ever should we remain close to our family and pursue the hobbies you love. This is the time where your at home for the whole day and should try new things treat you never had before read a book, try cooking, go on walks or exercise. We don’t know when this virus ends so we have to occupy ourselves with things to do, to remain healthy and entertained. And although were tucked away from each other like a kid in the timeout chair, this shouldn’t prevent us from being ourselves and staying happy.

No matter where you are, no matter what your doing, remember that people care about you and that you matter; be yourself and stay solid.