I

I

”I”

-not I

I don’t want to do this, and I see no useful purpose in doing this. I’d much rather take my time to write slowly, rather than fast, because that’s just what I prefer. Writing fast seems sloppy, and I don’t get time to think out my thoughts thoroughly. The structure becomes weird, I can’t get the sentences to flow and link together properly, and it just becomes excessively tiring after a while. I can’t quite seem to decide if I want to concentrate more, and speed up my thoughts to properly process what I’m writing, or concentrate more to slow down my thoughts, and write them down as they occur. Both don’t seem like good options. 

Either way, I’d quite honestly rather not go back and edit this later. It sounds painful, and I’d rather not relive this experience again. I can’t think through any of my thoughts properly, and at least while writing this, everything becomes a mess. I don’t remember what I wrote three minutes ago, and nothing has structure to it anymore. The only thing keeping me somewhat sane is the occasional obligatory swipe to check how many words I’ve written, and the fact that the clock somehow is moving at an unsteady pace. 

Interestingly enough, I don’t know what to write now. It might be that my brain has begun to shut down, but it also could be because, I don’t know, “things.” I’ve also made up my mind to not come back later to check over what I’ve written. Surely there’s no need for me to do that. All I know is that I don’t want to do this again.