05/17/2020
Journal Entry no. 1(?)
”Normal” for me could be anything, if I don’t have a definition.
“There are times when the mind is dealt such a blow it hides itself in insanity. While this may not seem beneficial, it is. There are times when reality is nothing but pain, and to escape that pain the mind must leave reality behind.”
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I used to have a diary. I say that with a lot of emphasis on “used to,” and surprisingly little emphasis on “diary.” I’m currently questioning if it could even be considered a diary at all, because although I did in fact write in it every day, the actual writing mainly just consisted of a singular sentence that I would rewrite consistently every day, detailing the events of said day. Case in point: “March 24, 2013: It’s been a normal day.” And that was all. Life was fun back then. It still is, considering the sheer amount of boredom and laziness required to do something like this.
Unfortunately, things happen, and I gave up on that venture. I still can’t quite tell if that move did more good than harm for me. After all, although I did indeed gain several more seconds in the day that could be used for doing useful things, there was still, by no means, a guarantee that I would actually utilize those seconds to do something useful. At least back then, I was (theoretically) still doing something, and therefore still gaining something, as small as that thing might be. After all, at least on a hypothetical level, writing just one sentence would still be better than sitting on a chair, staring at a wall, and doing basically nothing.
Looking back at this now, just like the rest of my life, boredom and laziness go together unexpectedly well, when they really shouldn’t. On one hand, I’m bored, and have nothing to do. On the other hand, I still need to do homework, practice cello, and quite a lot of other important things. However, both hands are weighed down by a healthy coating of pure and utter laziness, preventing anything productive (or even semi-productive, really) from happening. Thus, the one-sentence diary was formed.
It’s still been quite a normal day.
I like how philosophically you were getting about writing one sentence everyday. This is written in a witty manner. I really like how well this essay flows, and how well it concludes. Great job.
Posted by: Kevin Yuan | 04/13/2020 at 09:29 AM
This essay flows pretty well and I was able to follow along pretty well. Great job
Posted by: Drew Callen | 04/13/2020 at 03:55 PM